3 Months

Can't believe it's been 3 months already. Time truly goes by so quickly. Pretty soon I'll be back at work. I am terrified that I will miss out on her when the time comes. Frank says that he'll talk Ellie into waiting for me to come home first before reaching any of her milestones. If only that would be the case. I want to witness every one of her "firsts". I want to be there the first time she gets up to crawl, her first step, her first word. But I know that I have to go back to work, so right now, I just want to enjoy every second that I get to spend at home with her.

Ellie's growth and development have been pretty on track. She's now close to 15 pounds already! Her chubby cheeks, arms and legs make her so cute and adorable! I know I may be partial though =) She's a lot more alert and active when she's awake now, and she loves to talk to her daddy. I swear, she's extra talkative when Frank is talking to her. Already a daddy's girl! Oh, and she finally laughed aloud last week! It is honestly the greatest sound ever!

So no one ever told me that being a first time mother was going to be this hard. I'm not exactly certain if I would be having any more children since I really obsess about everything. I have a constant fear that I am doing something wrong. Right now, I am definitely obsessed with her sleep! She gets crazy when she's overly tired so I'm trying my best to put her down for naps before she gets cranky. That means that I always think twice about taking her out. I feel like almost everything interrupts her sleeping schedule, so we're cooped up at home most of the time. But the good thing is that she's falling into a more predictable schedule now, so hopefully she can keep it up!